I hate to even do this, but I need to vent a bit.
The past few weeks have been tough for my wife and I. While everything marriage-wise is fine, she has some health issues. Two years ago, she got really sick, and they determined that she had severe Pancreatitis due to complications with Type 2 Diabetes. She had no idea she had Diabetes, so this was a shock. Usually, people with Pancreatitis are middle-aged alcoholics; she barely drinks anything, ever. So, the solution was to get her Diabetes under control and everything else would fall into place. She did for the most part, with some lapses here and there where bad habits of eating crap sprouted up. We both love food, and it's hard to get accustomed to not being able to eat whatever you want. Mostly, she had it under control.
A couple weeks ago, she started feeling sick, and she had the symptoms of the Pancreatitis again. This time, her levels were in check, so she thought that she could ride it out on her own with some fasting and rest. After a week, it got better, but it came back HARD last Friday, so I took her into the hospital.
The hospital (the one I took her to last time) did not know how to treat her this time around, so they had to transfer her to a better hospital in Boston where they have specialists that can care for her better. They are not 100% sure what's causing the issues, but they are supposed to perform a procedure to help it heal today. They don't know if it's even going to work.
I'm sitting here trying to make sense of it all. Part of me feels like it's my fault for not enforcing a strict diet when she wanted to eat the good stuff, but I don't even know if that has anything to do with it. She's probably going to be mad if she finds out that I wrote this, but writing helps me make sense of things sometimes.
It's easy to forget sometimes that we are not immortal. Anything can happen at any time that can change the course of your life; whether it's something like I'm dealing with now, or something that happens to yourself, things can change at the snap of a finger. Hug your loved ones, and make sure they know you are there for them. You never know what is going to happen.